well i just learned that my little brother died in a fiery helicopter crash in Chechnya. He was the last one of my family alive today and now that he is dead i feel alone in this world. Now i sit here with a hand grenade with a box of grenades by my my feet ready to pull the pin let it go and blow this place up and join my family. If i live or die it don't matter right now. They want me to go home and take a week off for my self but i have to say no,this depot is all i have left in the world.

i have found my beslan pictures so i will start to posting when i get my monthly weapon count done.

if anybody has any info on print request i would like to know and devdollars what are they used for and how do i get them

Well i might be going to Serbia and fight there because i have a chance to leave mother Russia's military and become a civilian, stay here at this ammo depot or go fight some where else. I cannot go back to being a civilian because i was always my whole life i was a conscript to the motherland and i do not know how to walk down a street with out 250LBs of gear and a PKM GPM in my hands. I can become a mercenary.So you all tell me what i should do.

Finally i am a outpatient and i can finally go home and relax. I do not know what the drug i am on but they are good. First things first i have a AUG special and later on a XM8 special coming soon .